The can of grey paint, which five hours ago I couldn’t pull out fast enough, swallows rainwater. It’s starting to rain, and wood scraps still litter the deck.
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A glass of white wine calms my brain as the sky darkens. My husband is home from work my twin boys are home from their play date. Later that evening, I’ve completed my freelance work for the day. A mockup of a privacy screen, designed with scrap wood and a nail gun on a blitz. I see a prototype of a deck railing makeover. If he finds me on the deck, he won’t see the possibilities and excitement I see. My husband may stop by on his lunch hour.
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It’s not that I want to ignore the dishes in my sink. Unlike the grumpy boss regulating my impulses, ADHD is the fun co-worker who sends jokes to your email all day. But though it doesn’t take long to think of an idea, that doesn’t mean I should dive headfirst into that idea. It’s exhilarating to fly in creative mode. I grasp them as they come to me and hang on with talons. I can’t walk through our house, inside or out, without thinking of all the amazing things I could create. Back to the deck paint.Īs an adult with ADHD, I store an endless supply of ideas under my wings. You still have interior projects scattered across the family room.įine, my creative self pouts. The toilet hasn’t been cleaned in two weeks. You haven’t even cleaned the breakfast dishes. Luckily, the system that regulates my executive function is startled awake, like a grumpy boss waking from his nap. Should I add a wood bar now? I’ve got time. I have a miter saw now (a holiday present from my supportive but worried husband). And we should add a wood bar to the railing. New deck cushions! Light blue, like a robin’s egg. Let’s see what the railings look like with the gray. I’ll grab a pint of gray paint while I’m out there.
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Didn’t I see a deck on Pinterest with white railings? Yes, and a privacy screen with beautiful cedar wood slats. The Pinterest ideas I’ve collected this winter can now blossom into action. The Midwest is thawing, and I can finally exit the house. But what if it’s not actually about intellect? What if a bird is just so excited for spring, it doesn’t know where to turn first? What if the seemingly random movements are signs of an over stimulated brain, not a small one? The term ‘birdbrain’ was coined for a reason. The robins are first to the party every year. It is March 3 - only 18 days until spring. I swallow my Adderall and stare at them through the window. The morning robins prance on the deck railing.